Marriage, sex, infidelity.

I was up pretty late last night, chatting with people I don't even know on "Twitter" flirting and bullshiting each other. Quite enjoy it,I must say.

Then I watched this movie on the telly , it's about the story of 3 married couple, infidelity, sex etc. I thought it was very realistic, I can relate to it.

Being married is only great for the first couple of years, then you get bored! The excitement is gone. Sometimes, you have to schedule your sex with your partner, and most of the time, they're just quicky, no more passion.

I got a bit horny after watching it, I have to say, so I went to my bed and I was almost ready and look for my "bestfriend" but he was gone! Shit! where could it be? I always put it under my pillows. I searched everywhere and I couldn't find it. Damn it! I went to the kids bedroom and still couldn't find it.

I remember few years ago, when my daughter (she was only about 4 then I guess) she found my rampant bunny, and asked me what it is? I explained it's my back massage. cos I always moan about my sore back. (and I think, she believed me)

But now, they're about this age, especially my oldest, he's learning sex education at School now. The thing is, I am embarrassed to ask them about my toy. What can I say?

Hey kids, did you see my toy, that is pink and shape of a willy? This is one of those moment when women deny the fact that we masterbate too, that we play with ourselves.Some women won't admit it, but I bet, majority are doing it. Same thing as women don't watch porn films, it's like very demeaning especially if you're trying to have a good reputation, a good role model bullshit, you have to lie all the time...

One time, my friend gave me this "pleasure gel" from Ann Summers (sex shop) and it was minty. One day my son was looking for a hair gel, and found this pleasure gel in my bathroom, he took it and asked me if he can have some, I panicked and grab it from him, and told him, it's for adults only, and that' he will get some allergies if he ever use that.

This is the most difficult part, when you have children, I do not want them to think that I am a bad mum. I am a good mother, but as a human being I enjoy sex. I admit, I love it, and when I do it? I do it properly. I hate quickies. I love foreplays, and I can say, I am a giver.

I'd better go and look for my bestfriend again.